Thru the night I’ll cry and my heartbreak will remain. My love for you never changed. Knowing my heart was pure but what I went through. Noone is to blame. The footsteps that should have taken place. The fights of whose to blame. Walking out is the easiest thing to do. Coward. What a shame.
Trying not to overthink, I become deluded with things dissolving in the cells of my brain. Trying hard to ensure I breathe but my chest feels as though it’s about to explode. Nothing seems sensible as my mind starts to engulf simple words and actions into complex reasoning. Knowing those actions never occurred but the
Deep within I’m trying to convince myself that everything I do, I do just fine. Oh I’m fine behind the lies. And in lust with despair. I crave to feel lost in a black hole with everything but a single care. I love the mixed emotions of not knowing when my feelings will be turned
“are you ok” “yes” i mumble as i let the sweetest lie drift between my lips. my mouth sealed with a permanent marker of do not tell. my eyes screaming for someone to make me scream what’s wrong just so i can be let free. the water forming showing that i am a horrible
I ask myself constantly, when people look at me what do they see? A mentally broken black woman who struggles every day with her emotions? The smiles that are forced but widely accepted. When will anyone see past my disguise and actually feel deep in my demise? I put on a wonderful show, speaking all
Blink for a moment and escape in time. Listen to what your heart . Let me break down all barriers. Sink you into submission and allow every temptation to come to life. Remind me of how magical that melanin is. Show off mama, and twirl in some pretty thangs. Embrace the dancing of your emotions
Hello sweet brown eyes. Expecting the unexpected when I said hi. Keeping my feelings to myself yet you pull for me. Grasping for me in all sorts of directions but never the one that is straight like a beam. Mind everywhere and it is so very clearly that I’m stunting the kidd. Brush me off