Thru the night I’ll cry and my heartbreak will remain. My love for you never changed. Knowing my heart was pure but what I went through. Noone is to blame. The footsteps that should have taken place. The fights of whose to blame. Walking out is the easiest thing to do. Coward. What a shame.
You strayed away from me because u were scared of what could be. You found that love that you been dreaming of. So you sabotaged the could of been by distancing yourself crying wolf. Afraid that if you feel 100 percent I’d leave you and that scared you more than anything. Opening up to me.
You existed for the wrong things Came to the realization You were not the one for me Yet I tried to conform you to something you’d never be Mistakes that turned into lessons Constant cycles of self-hatred Unknowing that this was a dangling treat The promise and potential I saw Just wasn’t meant to cultivate
Is anxiety really a thing? Is overthinking something we can control? How can we regulate panic attacks when our minds start going into over drive? Why is time a healer of all wounds when my heart seems like its bout to beat its last beat? Why does heart break hurt so bad when it’s not
Patiently, I waited for you. I refused to give up on you with all the tears that filled my eyes. I compromised and took you back knowing that change doesn’t happen overnight. Yet every time, my heart was broken and I cried over white lies the feeling of anxiety filled me over time. I allowed
I let my anxiety create unnecessary insecurities. It’s crazy how I compromised because of your lies. I foolishly allowed myself to go blind of your actions cuz they were softly covered in beautiful satin sorries. The fact that I built up my tolerance on things that made me want to up and leave caused me
I can love you through all your mishaps, your sorries and fuck ups. The moment my flaws started to show, it’s okay for you to walk away because you don’t like how you’re feeling? Makes me regrets staying thru your bullshit of I’m trying and I’ll do better. All to keep the cycle of actions