Deep within I’m trying to convince myself that everything I do, I do just fine. Oh I’m fine behind the lies. And in lust with despair. I crave to feel lost in a black hole with everything but a single care. I love the mixed emotions of not knowing when my feelings will be turned
Let me ride your wavelength. Holding you closer than you have ever been clinched. Let me deep inside your membrane so I can visually see all the things that you try to hide. Let me kiss every inch of your mind leaving my wet imprints. Allow me to soak into your intuition bringing you to
“are you ok” “yes” i mumble as i let the sweetest lie drift between my lips. my mouth sealed with a permanent marker of do not tell. my eyes screaming for someone to make me scream what’s wrong just so i can be let free. the water forming showing that i am a horrible
hello my love, can you stay for one last kiss. i know we are over but it seems that my mind is only revolving around you and i need closure. the lust for your physical appearance is surreal and breaks down every thought of me walking away and saying this is dead. the desire for
I ask myself constantly, when people look at me what do they see? A mentally broken black woman who struggles every day with her emotions? The smiles that are forced but widely accepted. When will anyone see past my disguise and actually feel deep in my demise? I put on a wonderful show, speaking all
Hello sweet brown eyes. Expecting the unexpected when I said hi. Keeping my feelings to myself yet you pull for me. Grasping for me in all sorts of directions but never the one that is straight like a beam. Mind everywhere and it is so very clearly that I’m stunting the kidd. Brush me off
Before we end, let us try again. Only so you can hurt me and make sure this time, it is a forever life alerting event. Just wait, because before we end, I need to try one last time just to make sure. CHECK my pulse and make sure my heart is beating and ready.